According to an app I downloaded 2 years, 11 months, 25 days, and 3 hours ago, I quit nicotine 2 years, 11 months, 25 days, and 2.9 hours ago. This was after smoking a pack a day from 1991 to 2016 and then vaping god knows how much from 2016 until almost three years ago.
But I quit, and I've stayed quit, and I feel great! I feel really, really… I feel…
I won't lie: I feel like absolute garbage and I'm barely hanging on these days. Resisting the urge to smoke has not gotten particularly easier over the past almost-three years, and I still absolutely want to smoke on a near-daily basis. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I quit and I do feel proud of myself for staying quit, as it's one of the few positive changes I've made in my life over the past decade that I haven't immediately undone by backsliding after a couple weeks. But there are days, a lot of days, where I really feel like I'm clinging to my convictions by mere fingernails.
A lot can trigger a craving: seeing someone smoking in my neighborhood, smelling smoke from a nearby cigarette, seeing someone on TV or in a movie smoking, seeing a crushed cigarette butt on the street, having coffee, having a drink, social situations, e...
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